excerpt 002 – nothing is dead

and if the world ends tomorrow surrounded by the burning. despite it all. i want to try. i looked for something more waiting for something to break in my favor. if i sit with the desire for too long i can feel a cry bubbling up. i’m not asking for much. not fame nor fortune. but to teach. why do i always lag behind? is it the past sticking to me? will i ever be sterilized?